Finally..i understood the meanin of tis proverb..“if u truely lov someone..u won't reali hav to possess him/her..u will onli wish to see him/her hapi..n u wil be satisfied..”
yesterday i hav confessed to a gal..she was my skulmate..we hav known each other for about 1 yr...we both are in the volleyball school team...she n i seldom chat in skul..but we get along quite well..i will always remember tat day..she hide behind my bck..hidin from the sunlite..cute isn't it..XD
N she oways complainin me hittin the ball too strong..she cnt catch it...n the times i'm acting like the coach teachin her hw to play..those unforgettable memories..
i hav seen her datin with her bf's one by one with my own eyes...n i onli hope she's hapi..tatz all..but i also c her broked up with them one by one..which is oso i hope she won't date with other boys again..cos i knw when she broke up with them..she is quite upset..i dun wish to c tat......i reali hope her nxt bf is me..cos i think im the one who can giv her hapiness...but...maybe nt...i knw i'm nt fit to be her bf..
i mean..i cnt reali take gud care of her cos im livin in a hostel..i cnt go out..i cnt oways accompany her...so after i confess...i told her.."i knw im nt fit..sry.."
she said..."nvm..at least we cn stil be frenz.." Nw tatz the onli thing i nid to hear...im oredi satisfied with tat answer...nt hopin for anymore stuff....
n watz more..although my confess has failed AGAIN tis time..i manage to at least
get a "CONSOLE PRIZE"..she's nw currently my female confidant..she allows me to share some of her n mine's secret with her... tis is oredi her limit..wat more cn i ask for anyway..?I... hope i cn always be by herside...whenever she nidz me..i will share her feelins no matter when or whr...n i wil oways lend my shoulder to her.....i promise...xxxx....I LOV U...
终于..我了解到了"爱一个人..不一定要拥有她..而是要看到她快乐.."这道理...
昨天，我和一个女生告白了..她是我的同学..我们相识有大约一年了..她和我一样是学校的
排球校队代表..虽然她和我很少聊天..但我们彼此之间相处的还不错..还记得以前..她曾在打球时间时躲在我背后..
躲着刺眼的阳光...那时侯我就突然开始觉得她很可爱...
还有..还记得她时常她时常对我抱怨说球打得太大力..她接不到..还有我时常模仿教练教她如何开球....
那些美好的记忆..我都无法忘记...
我曾亲眼见证过她跟她一个个男友一起约会..拍拖..而我只是希望她快乐..就只是这样..但我也亲眼看见她和一个个男友分手..所以我也产生了不想她再和别的男生交往这想法..因为我知道..每当她和她的男友分手时..她都会很伤心..而我最不想看到她伤心....所以我很希望她的下位男友是我..因为我自认为我就是能带给她幸福和快乐的男人..
但..也许是我太自恋了...我不可能当一个好男友..因为我知道我是一名宿舍生..我无法时时刻刻在她身边陪伴着她..所以我在跟她告白之后..我就说"对不起..我知道我不配.."
她说“没关系，至少我们还可以做朋友..”听了这句话后，我就觉得这就够了..我已经很满足了..
况且...虽然我的告白再次的失败了..但我至少得到了一个“安慰奖”...目前..她已是我的红颜知己..她允许我与她俩之间互相分享一些心事...这已经是她的极限了...我还想要求什么呢？？
我..真的希望能一直待在她身边..无论何时..只要她需要我时..我都愿意与她分享心事..愿意做她永远的听众..亦愿意随时借个肩膀给她靠...XX..我爱你..
Thursday, February 25, 2010
12th.Jan.2010
Remember las time i said i hav a "WIFE"?? Well..maybe i was too naive..it was all juz a dream...she n i hav finali broke up..the commitment n agreement we made has turn to dust..She doesn't lov me anymore...she havn't cal me nor message me for a long time..
n when i cal her..she juz talk with me for onli bout' 2 minutes...n hanged up herself..
even without sayin gudbye..finali..i could not bear tis pain anymore..i wanna find out wad the hell is she doin..i ask her.."do u stil lov me at all??do u stil cherish me nor even think of me at all??wad am i nw to u in ur heart??" Unexpectly..she actually answer..."no..im busy lately..i hav no time to think of u..n lastly..i onli take u as a frend nw..tatz all.."
Thx to her..my heart has once again been lacerate..i hate u GAN WEN TING..i reali hate u..u made up a lot of promise to me..u said u wil lov me for as long as u cn..but tat seems to be a bunch of bullshit..eh?
I reali wan to knw..is god makin fun of me...?every of my love ends like tis..am i a toy or wad...?Who in tis world stil care nor lov me at all..i dunno..maybe..non at all....two yrs ago..the same thing hapened...long lasting tears falled from my eyes..
but nw..no..nt anymore..my tears has dried up...cos i wont let it fall out of my eye for a damn kinda woman like tis...
还记得上次我曾说过我有个“妻子”吗？？似乎..是我太天真了..一切原来只是一场梦..她和我终于分手收场了..
我们之间所曾经立下的承诺和约定..已化成了一堆灰尘..她已经不爱我了..很久连一通电话甚至信息都没打给我了..
而当我打电话给他时..她只和我聊了两分钟..便挂了电话..连一声再见都不说..终于..我忍受不了了..我要知道他到底在搞什么鬼..我问她：“你还爱我的吗？你到底有没有想我？有没有珍惜过我的？我究竟在你的心里还算什么？？”
想不到..她竟然回答说..“不，我很忙，没时间想你..还有..我现在只把你当作好友..就这样..”
多亏她..我的心又再次被割伤..我真的很恨你..颜雯婷..我真的恨你..你答应过我会爱我爱到天长地久..但是那似乎只是一堆谎言。.对吧？
我真的很想知道..神是否在戏弄我...？每次我的恋爱..都会落得如此的结局..难道是个玩偶不成？这世上还有谁关心我/爱我...我不知道..也许..简直没有..两年前..同样的事情曾发生..我的眼珠曾流出非常长久的泪水...但现在..不了..我的泪水已干..不会再为这种人流泪...决不会...
n when i cal her..she juz talk with me for onli bout' 2 minutes...n hanged up herself..
even without sayin gudbye..finali..i could not bear tis pain anymore..i wanna find out wad the hell is she doin..i ask her.."do u stil lov me at all??do u stil cherish me nor even think of me at all??wad am i nw to u in ur heart??" Unexpectly..she actually answer..."no..im busy lately..i hav no time to think of u..n lastly..i onli take u as a frend nw..tatz all.."
Thx to her..my heart has once again been lacerate..i hate u GAN WEN TING..i reali hate u..u made up a lot of promise to me..u said u wil lov me for as long as u cn..but tat seems to be a bunch of bullshit..eh?
I reali wan to knw..is god makin fun of me...?every of my love ends like tis..am i a toy or wad...?Who in tis world stil care nor lov me at all..i dunno..maybe..non at all....two yrs ago..the same thing hapened...long lasting tears falled from my eyes..
but nw..no..nt anymore..my tears has dried up...cos i wont let it fall out of my eye for a damn kinda woman like tis...
还记得上次我曾说过我有个“妻子”吗？？似乎..是我太天真了..一切原来只是一场梦..她和我终于分手收场了..
我们之间所曾经立下的承诺和约定..已化成了一堆灰尘..她已经不爱我了..很久连一通电话甚至信息都没打给我了..
而当我打电话给他时..她只和我聊了两分钟..便挂了电话..连一声再见都不说..终于..我忍受不了了..我要知道他到底在搞什么鬼..我问她：“你还爱我的吗？你到底有没有想我？有没有珍惜过我的？我究竟在你的心里还算什么？？”
想不到..她竟然回答说..“不，我很忙，没时间想你..还有..我现在只把你当作好友..就这样..”
多亏她..我的心又再次被割伤..我真的很恨你..颜雯婷..我真的恨你..你答应过我会爱我爱到天长地久..但是那似乎只是一堆谎言。.对吧？
我真的很想知道..神是否在戏弄我...？每次我的恋爱..都会落得如此的结局..难道是个玩偶不成？这世上还有谁关心我/爱我...我不知道..也许..简直没有..两年前..同样的事情曾发生..我的眼珠曾流出非常长久的泪水...但现在..不了..我的泪水已干..不会再为这种人流泪...决不会...
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